How 2 Became 1

Chad and I were introduced to each other through a mutual friend and we hit it off right away. We started dating October 4, 2004. We were engaged December 26, 2004. We got married December 3, 2005 at Cody Creek Chapel! We honeymooned in Jamaica at Sandals Montego Bay. We will be celebrating our 5 year anniversary this December.

One of our 1st Dates

Mr. and Mrs. Pangan

December 3, 2005

Jamaica

Welcome to The Pangan Family Blog!

I am changing this blog to a family blog and I am adding it a few posts to catch everyone new on the history of our little family!  I will still be posting my thoughts about life and whats going on personally with me.  Chad will also be posting his thoughts and we will both be updating about the family.  We will also use this blog to replace our old website thepangans.com. As awesome as that site is we feel that a blog is going to be the best way to keep everyone updated but mostly we are minimizing because almost everyone that visited the site is on Facebook and we utilize our Facebook accounts more than we do that site now. It is also getting hard to update all of the sites. We will also require a log in to see the blog.  So if you want to see it just let either me or Chad know. Over the next few days and weeks I will be updating the blog with some important information from our old site. We hope that you will enjoy the blog and check back for updates regularly!

Exercise and Blogging!

To be honest I cannot blog everyday!  I wish I could because I really enjoy it!  However I do want to blog more.  So I am going to start a weekly blog here about my thoughts and report my exercise for the week. If I can blog more then I will but I have such limited time with work, family, and the other few things I enjoy like reading.

I have lost 45 lbs so far and I want to lose more.  I have been exercising often but I want to do more and I am going to have to do more to continue to see the weight loss I have been having and to maintain.  I also want to run a 5K soon. A friend of mine is doing a 5K in early December and I am not signing up for anything just in case something happens with my Grandparents but if they are still doing ok then I can do it.  I am on my way though.  I can run for 25 minutes now at 5mph with out stopping but at the end of 30 minutes I am still only at a little over 2 miles.  That still leaves at least 1 mile to go.

I don't have much to report so far this week since its really only been a few days. 
Saturday: 25 minutes on the treadmill after work which consisted of 15 minute run at 5 mph and walking for 10 mins
Sunday: Day Off
Monday: 30 minutes on treadmill at home which consisted of 10 minute run at 5 mph, 5 min walking at 0 incline at 3 mph, 15 minute walk at 8 incline at 4 mph!

I will update the rest next week! Also just a side note on my treadmill at home. I have a great treadmill at home but when I run at full speed it shakes the entire house almost so I usually run less at home but I walk at an increased incline.

My life has been crazy of late.  Work is insanely busy and I end up working most days late and through my lunch.  In the past 2 weeks all of my Grandparents have been in the hospital sick.  Nanny Peg had to have her gallbladder removed because of gallstones and she was there for 2 days.  Papaw Lester was sick with a virus which had him in the hospital for 3 days.  Mamaw Evalene had a chest tube put in today and she was put in the hospital yesterday.  I have been really worried about them all week and stressing about everything else too!

It is so odd that when you are so stressed out that you just want to eat and sleep but in reality since exercise is good for stress if you are stressed you should want to work out!  But everyday I find myself NOT wanting to work out.  BUT I have been doing it anyways and I feel much better when I get done!  I guess that is the main thing, right?! 

Harry Potter and the Deatlhy Hallows

This is my post for the day! This took my breath away! I mean WOW and this is just Part 1!  Oh my goodness!  This will so be a midnight showing!

It has been too long ...

I enjoy blogging and it is very relaxing to me.  It is a great way for me to get all that has been floating around in my head out.  I wish I had time to do it more.  I think I might make some time to do it more.  So tonight I just have some random things I want to say!

This month has been really good so far as weight loss for me.  My food has been good but my exercise has fallen off a bit.  I have thought about starting to blog about what exercise I do each day.  I did that at the beginning of the year and it seemed to help some.  Who knows I might try it?  I was running a lot and I still do some but I got off track and I can't seem to get back on it.  I know that I have been making it weight loss wise but if I don't get back on track then I will not be able to keep this up.  Maybe I need that accountability again of blogging about it?  Hmmm... something else to ponder!

Mamaw is not doing well.  They did a bone scan this past week and they are doing an MRI.  The cancer is affecting her bones and it is the 1st thing that has caused her pain specifically from the cancer.  Most of the other has been from chemo or radiation.  They are talking about more radiation now but we will know more this week.  She has been really weak and tired, more than normal even with the steroids.  I am not sure how this is going to go but I am scared.  No matter how much notice you get it doesn't really make it easier. It just doesn't make it a surprise. 

I have been baking and probably have gained at least 2 lbs back this weekend alone.  I made my dad a birthday cake and I made cupcakes for church today.  They all tasted good and I had 1 slice or 1 of each only so I didn't do bad but it is more than my normal! 

I got to meet Lily Barbour Friday! She is so sweet and so little!  It is so hard to believe that Nisee was ever that small.  There are so many babies and babies on the way that it makes me ALMOST want another one now but I still want to wait and enjoy Nisee more.

Well its Sunday night and tomorrow starts a new work week.  I pray this is a good week for the family!

Finally I am going to do it!

So I have decided that since I have lost 40 lbs I am going to post a few pictures. I have been avoiding it but I think I look ok.  Here goes nothing ... All pictures were taken in the past 2 weeks.

 

It has been a rough weekend/week so I have not been exercising like I should have been but as long as I get back in the groove I can stay on track.  I am hoping that by have the guts to post these then I will get the extra motivation to get back on track no matter who is sick or how busy I get. I am far from done with this journey!

Now that I have lost 40 ... ONLY 40 more to go! 

Aversion

So I have an aversion to dealing with things sometimes.  I just want to read or watch my soaps and not think about all the stuff going on right now.  So things are busy at work and of course stressful as always.  But I sort of feed on that so I can't complain about that too much. 

More than that things aren't going well with Mamaw.  It will be 1 year October that she was diagnosed.  She is having a bad spell right now and it's hard to handle.  Since she has been doing so well it is easy to trick yourself into believing that she isn't sick and that everything will be ok.  Then she has a bad spell and it's like a reality check. Actually it's like she was just diagnosed all over again.  It sucks the air out of you and then you realize she's dying. So yea that feeling is what I am trying to avoid.  Each time she has a bad spell if she does gain any ground back she always loses more and never gets back to where she was.  We will know more this Friday after she goes to the doctor but either way it seems like things are starting to go down hill faster. 

My time will now be spent in Statesville as much as possible.  I am asking that all my friends understand this.  We do not know how much time we will have with her going forward so I am going to spend as much time as I can with her.  So if I break plans or I can't do something there really is a good reason why.  I hope you all never have to go through this.  I also ask that you pray for her and my family through this.  Thanks to all of my friends that have already been there.  I am glad to have you now and I am going to need you all more than ever soon.  Good night all! 

The Goals Update

My official weigh in is tomorrow morning but I also had to weigh in this past Wednesday for my Healthy Dividends screening. When I did I had reached my next goal and actually surpassed it.

My next goal was to Lose 6 more pounds by Labor Day September 6, 2010. I have actually lost 7 lbs for a total of 37 lbs.

Now it is on to my next goal which is lose 16 more pounds by Halloween. This one I am not so sure I can do. I have 8 weeks and I have lost more than that before but things are going to slow down soon! Also starting in October I will no longer be taking the appetite suppressants. These require at least 1 month off after 4 months of taking them. So we will see! I hope that my exercising and watching my food will pay off and I can continue my weight loss on my own!

I had a great weekend and I am sad to see that it is ending tomorrow. I am excited to finish what we started at the house and see my almost new basement!

I also want to say that I am blessed to have a great family and some great friends but sometimes I can't help but feel left out. Just things maybe I only see but still I notice them and it is a little tug at my heart.

Good night to all and here are a few pics from this wonderful weekend!

Painting the basement!

So today we spent the day working on one of our House Projects! Chad and I started working on our basement. We bought the paint for the walls and decided on what we are going to do about the floors. To start the day we removed the furniture and wall items and then we removed the carpet!!! It was the best decision we have ever made! I hate carpet except in bedrooms. It was so great to see that concrete! We made the decision last weekend that we are going to stain the concrete. It is a really cool way to use the floor and there are tons of options for color and texture and since anytime you stain concrete it finishes different it will be unique. Only problem is we haven't decided on a color yet. We got 2 coats of paint on the walls on the larger side of the basement! Not all of the horrible Carolina blue is gone but A LOT of it is! We also got 1 coat of paint on the bottom paneling! WE LOVE IT!!!! The colors open and brighten up the room. We still have more to do as far as painting. We have to paint the bottom paneling again, paint the base boards, paint the chair railing, paint the window, and paint the door and door jam. That is just on the Bigger side. We have to do it all over again on the small side! We also have to clean the concrete and stain it! For 1 day we got a lot done! We are both so exhausted and we couldn't have done it without my mom who stayed all day and watched Nisee for us! Below are some pictures. Enjoy and Good Night!

The Concrete! Just needs the Stain now! ... Hmmm What color?!?!





Before and After Colors! The After is so much better! :)


Nisee and Me (Notice the paint on my face! Yea I am a messy painter)

Endings and Automotive Repairs

So tonight was my last night of the 12-9 shift at work as a part of the rotation with just 1 other team lead. Now all of the team leads will rotate the shift so I will be working it less often. That's a great thing! Only down side is that I was actually enjoying working out after work on the treadmill. Nisee goes to bed between 8-9 so shes asleep by the time I get home anyways so I figured heck why not run after work. But now I gotta find another time to do it. I am thinking of trying 1st thing in the morning but I am not sure about that. Tomorrow isn't going to happen but maybe Thursday morning I can go to bed early enough to get my butt up at 5:30 to get in a quick 30 walk/run before work. We will see. I am not an early morning person. Who knows? Gotta try it before I knock it!

Also I am proud to report that last night on the treadmill I ran for the longest consecutive time frame. I ran for 18 minutes straight at 5 mph. I walked for 8 mins a 3.0 and then started running and did 2 mins and realizes I had forgot to put on my Ipod so I had to slow down and get situated for the long haul. Then I just started an I made it. It felt great too! Maybe Tomorrow I can do it again! :)

Today was Crazy! I got up played with Nisee for a few hours and then took her to daycare. I came back home and got ready for work and went out to my car to leave and well I noticed there was something really wrong. My Car was really hard to turn. I pulled out of the drive way and It took 2 hands just to turn then I noticed my AC wasn't cooling and my heat guage was getting higher. I quickly did a U turn and went the 2 tenths of a mile back home and called my Mom, Opened the hood and sure enough I had thrown a belt. Later to be termed the Serpentine belt by my Dad. So I had to call in to work because Daddy was no where to be found at the time and Chad was at work and so was everyone else I knew. So finally got a hold of Daddy who said he could fix it no problem just couldn't do it until after 5pm. My Mom was getting off work early to come take me to work. Chad got called back to his job SO his mom had to pick up Nisee and watch her while Chad was at work until 8pm. Then he had to come pick me up at work because I didn't have a car. I want to thank everyone for their help! I appreciate it. Good news is the Matrix is all better now so I can drive myself to work tomorrow!

I just wanted to take a few minutes to talk about how glad I am to have so many great people in my life and how I really love my family! Good Night all!