Boy its been a while

One thing is for sure, I am good and not finishing what I start. As far as Blogs are concerned that is. My 365 project fizzed out and then I tried to start the Couch too 5K (C25K) program. The day after I started Chad got sick and then Nisee and then Me. Life was crazy with multiple things going on with Church and family. It was not a good time to start anything like that. I am still doing the Race for the Cure 5K even if all I do is walk it.

Things have also been on hold for my weight loss journey. Each Day I start out with great plans but by the end of the day I am eating what I want and have no desire to work out. I don't even want to play on the Wii Fit and I LOVE my wii fit! I have yet to gain any weight but it's on its way I don't figure out how to get out of this slump soon.

I had a great weekend. Spent great time with awesome friends. That got me motivated to try to start anew again today but by around 5pm I was starving and I ended up eating like crazy. I am hoping that after this weekend things will slow down and I can get back into some sort of a routine. I am not going to be signing up to do all this stuff like I have been. I really enjoy helping and doing but I gotta have some time for me. Also soon I will be coming off of the 12-9 schedule and then I will be able to get into an even better routine.

It is supposed to be gorgeous this weekend so I hope to get outside and get some sun and maybe some outside exercise too!

I also just want to say that I have the best friends ever!!! (see pictures)

Things that make you go hmmm

So I did my 2nd workout of week one today and for some reason it was harder. It was the same thing as Monday but for some reason today seemed a little harder. I have an idea of why but oh well either way I completed it plus some. It is only a 30 minute workout but I did 8 extra minutes to round out my 2 miles. I had completed 1.5 miles when the 30 minutes was up and I just did a 2.5mph walk to finish out the 2nd mile. Then I did 100 crunches and a good 15 minute stretching session. It was great! I love stretching!

SO the big question is my weight. Well I am happy to report that I have not gained or lost. I have stayed constant which is great. I just knew I had gained some back but apparently I have done just enough to maintain. So I am steady at 15 lbs down. I am hoping to get that moving in the right direction soon.

I have never won anything in my life but I won tickets to Live In the Wolf's Den to see Randy Houser tomorrow. He is a country singer I like. It will be a small concert at the radio station and then we get to meet him. I got to take a friend so I am taking Brittany. Its going to be a great time.

I have a busy couple of weeks coming up. You already know what I am doing tomorrow Saturday We will be doing some shopping at the clothing exchanges. Next weekend is my 31 party on March 13th! Let me know if you want to attend. Friday the 19th I have Festival of Tables at Church. Then the weekend of the 20th will be getting ready for Christina's Shower and Bachelorette. Then the 26th I have Christina's Bridal Shower and Bachelorette party. Then April 3rd I have the Church Easter Egg Hunt and Easter the 4th. So I will be Super Busy! Wish me luck that I don't lose my Mind!

Now I remember ....

So now I remember how much I love running! I started my Couch to 5K today and I really loved my run on my new treadmill. It was so great! I made it through with out much trouble. Week 1 was not too tough but far from easy. I can tell its been a while since I ran like that.

Week 1 consists of: Brisk five-minute warmup walk. Then alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes. Then a 5 minute cool down.

I walked at 3 mph and Ran at 5 mph. I hope to speed it up as I get stronger but I am happy with that right now. Tomorrow is a Rest day but I will probably do some Wii Fit or some weights but no running because that is not a part of the plan.

It has been a Monday that is for sure. Chad is sick. He tried to blame it on the left over roast and mashed potatoes I made but I ate them too and I am fine! I think he is just sick or he ate something earlier that made him sick. Either way I am going to be taking care of my hubby!

Calories Burned so far today 2891
Calories Consumed so far today 1680
Deficit 1211

Looking forward to tomorrow!

Anticipation

I am super excited about starting my Couch to 5K program tomorrow! I have my treadmill ready and waiting. I got my podcasts on my Ipod. Yes there are podcasts to go along with the running! Its really cool! I am ready as well and I should be getting off this dang computer to go to bed but I wanted to do a quick update to those who may or may not be following me.

On another note I finished 2 books this weekend. The Last Precinct by Patricia Cornwell was really good. I also love the tv show The Vampire Diaries so I bought the 1st book that the show is loosely based off of and it was good. I enjoyed the book but I think I like the show better. The books are a different take with same characters so its still fun to read. I plan to read them all. Now I am moving on to another series as well.

the Light bulb and Couch to 5K

So if you have been reading this blog then you know I lost my motivation and then I got it back and I lost it all again in about a week. I have decided that I am not going to be continuing with the original blog. I already log my food on bodybugg.com and logging there and then turning around and logging here was just too much. I am not stopping my blog altogether but you won't find daily logs of my food. I also was getting motivation from my blog but towards the end I found no motivation in it anymore. Nothing against anyone who was following but I lost it. So after floundering around for about 2 weeks I am changing my approach to things. One thing I have learned is that things may work for a while but they don't always keep working so you have to adapt your approach. So this is my adaptation to what I was doing. More to come about my decision.

SO we went to visit The Steele's Friday Night. We had to finally exchange Christmas gifts because we haven't been able to visit for so long. We had a great visit and Nisee got to play with Evans. They got us a cute Christmas ornament with our family picture on it and Nisee got great PJ's! Shes actually still wearing them from last night. LOL While there Matt and Stephanie were talking about this Couch to 5K thing they are doing. Stephanie is on week 6 I think she said and Matt on week 8. They are running a 5K next weekend. They talked about how much they liked the program and Matt has lost like 18 lbs since starting it. The more they talked about it the more interested I got. They told me I could look it up online. So I did and I think I am going to do it to prepare for the Susan G Komen 5K race on May 1st. If I start it Monday I would be at week 8 when the race is in May. I am trying to get Chad to do it with me. THIS IS LIKE PULLING TEETH!!! My husband does not exercise. Hell its like pulling teeth to get him to do the wii but I really want him to do it with me. I am going to be working on him still tomorrow. Even Bribes aren't working! hmmm... I haven't tried threats yet ... I WONDER?!?!? LOL Either way I am going to do it.

So now about my blog ... I am going to Blog about how things are going with weight loss. I will continue to report my lbs lost and my challenges. Its still a work in progress but I am not going to be blogging my food each day. I am also going to include my experiences with the couch to 5K. I am not completely a couch potato but I am not a runner by far. So If you want to continue to follow me please do. Your support is greatly appreciated but this blog is changing and evolving as my life and weight loss journey are.


The Couch to 5K Plan can be seen at the link to the right!

Day 50

My Child is crazy today! She is refusing to go to sleep. My wonderful husband is tending to her so I can write my blog. I have been randomly uploading pictures for my Dads facebook in between playing with her.

Well I started out the day with really good intentions but it ended in not such a good way. I think I will be taking this week to try to get back on track. It won't be right away but it will happen!

Food Today:

Breakfast:
Jimmy Dean Delights Bagel sandwich

Am Snack:
Granola Bar

Lunch:
Lean Cuisine Pizza 3 meat deep dish
granola bar
100 calorie almonds

PM Snack:
MnM's
string Cheese
100 calorie oatmeal raisin cookies

Dinner:
Wheat Crackers
Ramen Noodles chicken flavor
Key Lime Pie

Met my activity target for the day.

Day 46, Day 47, Day 48, and Day 49

So Yea ... If you have been following this blog then you know that I have been having a rough time of late. Each day that passed that I didn't get on here and write my daily blog I was thinking "Hollie You are messing up a good thing!" AND yet I still did not get on here and enter my food or my thoughts.

I wondered if it was the fact that I was ashamed of what I had eaten. Then I thought no not really. I mean I ate Pizza, cake (lots of cake), cookies, fettuccine Alfredo, and candy. I ate lots of it too. I know I am an emotional eater and I know I use food as comfort but that doesn't mean I can just stop. Being an emotional eater is the worst kind of addiction. Its not like with a drug addict or an alcoholic who can just get away from the vice. I have to eat to live. I am not ashamed of what I eat.

I then wondered if I have over committed myself again but then I thought "Nope If you were able to get on facebook then you could have gotten on here and written your blogs." I am busy but not that busy.

I then wondered if it was my depression and the fact that when I get depressed I feel defeated and I think that nothing I do is going to matter so why do it at all. That sounds more like it.

Why did my world come crashing to a halt? Well it started last October but we some bad news about my Mamaw's response to her chemo. Basically her cancer is still growing. Since the last xray in December the large tumor in her lung as grown 9mm which is 23%. Tears flowed and the same reaction that our loss is imminent appears. My job is stressing me beyond belief. I also tend to beat myself up about bad choices I have made. And on top of that I compound it by dwelling on things. I am a master dweller! If there was an Olympic event for dwelling I would win it. I still think about things that I did years ago. I know its odd that I do it but like I said I am dweller.

So DO I give up and stop my blog? I decided that NO I do not. I am going to keep going. I am not going to give up. We all have set backs as that is life. I am going to try to work on the things I have talked about today. Tomorrow is a new day and I intend to start anew and motivated! I anticipate this will not me by last slip!

I want to say thanks to those who have supported me. It is great to have friends like you! I am blessed. The sermon at church this morning was about friendship and about what we should do to be a good friend. The Pastor had this passage from the bible in his power point and I really loved it so I am going to end this blog with it.


12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

Colossians 3:12-17 (New International Version)

Day 45

I hate my job and I love cake!
Yes that says it all....

Food today:

Breakfast:
Turkey Bacon and Egg on Wheat Toast

Lunch:
Ham sub with swiss and mayo on white
Snack mix
Angel Food Cake with lite whipped topping and fresh strawberries

Snack:
1 Girl Scout Cookie

Dinner:
Fettuccine Alfredo
Garlic Bread
Reeses Cake

Day 44

Today was a great day! My team had a bday party food day for our February Birthdays and That includes me. We have 5 people on my team of 14 whos birthdays are in February! They had spaghetti and salad and cheese bread. They even got me my favorite cake: Red Velvet with cream cheese icing. They also got some 5 flavor pound cake with chocolate icing. It was a great! I really appreciate my team!

Food Today:

Breakfast:
Jimmy Dean D-Lights Canadian Bacon English Muffin

Lunch:
Spaghetti with meat sauce
Cheese bread
Ham snack sandwich
Red Velvet Cake and cream cheese icing
5 flavor pound cake with chocolate icing

Snack:
Granola Bar
String cheese

Dinner:
Wheat Crackers
Ramen Noodles chicken flavor
Girl Scout cookies


I am just not sure this blog is doing what I started it for. Once again I had another day where I ate too much and exercised none and for some reason I don't care. Maybe its apathy ... maybe lack of motivation ... I try to remember that I have important events coming up but thats still not doing it. Who knows? NOT ME that's for sure. I feel very defeated but I think this is all a part of this journey. If I can get past this and force myself through this then maybe I will come out better on the other side. Each day is a new day ... SO Guess what I am going to start all over again tomorrow! Pray that I can get back on track and have a good day tomorrow!

Day 43

HELP! I have lost my motivation! I was doing so great for so long but this past week I find myself not wanting to track my food or even worry about what I put in my mouth. Today I found myself going to Arbys and eating fries and then came the girl scout cookies. I don't know where my gumption went but dangit I want it back! Any one have any tips about what I can do to get it back!

Food Today:

Breakfast:
Egg and turkey bacon on wheat

Lunch:
Arbys roast beef
Curly fries
100 calorie cakester

PM snack:
100 calorie Oatmeal raisin cookies
2 Girl scout Lemon cookies

Dinner:
Lean Cuisine 3 meat deep dish pizza
2 Girl Scout Lemon Cookies

Late Snack:
2 girl scout lemon cookies


Total Intake: Who knows ... NOT ME
Total Burn: 2365 as of 9 pm

Exercise:
Met my activity target but thats all nothing more than that